Father, We Long For You! A Letter to True Father

Father, We Long For You! A Letter to True Father by Mrs. Won Ju McDevitt, which was read during 2015 Cheon Il Guk Leaders Special Assembly – September 3rd, 2015 Cheongpyeong HJeaven and earth Training Center.

F ollowing True Father’s Seonghwa, I buried the simple expression, “I long for you,” in the deepest recesses of my heart. This is because the moment I would say “longing,” the tears I had hidden deep within my heart would burst forth in an Father you said, “read it louder!” and you laughed so brightly. From that moment, my life as a Hoondok reader began. Early in the morning, you would cough and begin reading the Word again and again from early morning till late at night. However, this was not endless stream of tears. enough. Father, you asked me to record your words When I painfully strove to ignore my heart of longing and play them to you, which I did. Thanks to you, I and when my heart was deafened by the thought of lived completely within your Word. I grew through Father, I looked to the vast expanse in the sky and tried your Word, Father, and through your word, I was to imagine happy thoughts. raised. However, even in the happy thoughts I tried to imagine Father! Do you remember that time? to chase away my longing, I found Father. Father, your Barely a month had passed since I had given birth to bright twinkling eyes, your tears, your sweat and your my first child; my body was still weak yet you called voice, which I yearn to hear, were everything to me. me and asked to go. I do not know where I got the Everything was with you. Father, I deeply yearn for strength but I courageously followed you, Father. I left you. my newborn baby behind and hid my tears as I left Father! Do you remember that time? East Garden; nevertheless, because you only thought of Heaven’s Providence, I could neither complain nor In the winter of that year, it snowed a lot yet I left my leave your side. On the contrary, I followed Father beloved parents and siblings to go to America, a land I worried that I might miss you or you might leave me knew little about, to meet my husband, the head of behind. I followed you behind as if I were walking security, and form a family nest there. barefoot. Father, when I looked back, I understood that When I began my life of attendance in East Garden, I this was the true love you spoke about. Father, when I was so young, yet Father you asked me to read the looked back, I understood that this was true shimjung Tongil Segye! I was shaking and so scared that I do not you spoke about. When I looked back, I understood remember how I read the text to Father. At that time, that you taught me so much that was true.

Father! Do you remember that time? You were the Father who loved my singing, While we were sweating in the hot weather of Hawaii, You were the Father who loved my dances, you asked me to prepare winter clothes. Until we set You always encouraged me and today, I long for you off on the journey to Beijing, I did not know where we so profoundly! were going. While in the guesthouse in Hamhung, Father and Mother toured the surroundings and prayed If I were to spread this heart of longing for you, I feel in the middle of a winter night that was pitch dark. At that it would cover the entire world. that time, you said, “Wonju, can you sing something?” Father, you loved heaven so profoundly; you were the It was so cold that I could not pronounce the words, yet true son of filial piety. Father, you were the son of I kept singing and walking. Heaven who loved a blind and ignorant humanity. Father, you offered prayers and devotion in Until the last moment, you showed us the way to live a anticipation of meeting Premier Kim Il Sung the next life of true filial piety before the Heavenly Parent and day. You fought, risking your life, for the sake of today, at this moment, I so long for you. North and South reunification. This memory remains Furthermore, Father, engraved in my heart as an unforgettable memory. For the past three years; whether it rained or snowed, There is nowhere around the world I have not gone Mother mourned and offered tremendous devotion for thanks to you Father. Thanks to you, I traveled the you on behalf of all humanity. Two days ago, during world over. the 3rd Seonghwa Memorial, Mother said, “Father! Father! This is the first time I am writing you a letter From now on, please stand by the lonely Heavenly after three years; there is so much I would like to tell Parent and comfort Him. Please find your freedom in you. this farewell.” While you were in the hospital ward under anesthetic, Following your ascension, Mother shed tears of you asked for Mother the moment you woke up, yearning and while stroking your face, she said, tightly held her hand and prayed. Even in the midst of “Father, you went through so much trouble. Please do physical pain, you understood the heart of Heavenly not worry. Until the day I day, I will establish Cheon Il Parent! Father, our Father, not once did you live for Guk on this earth without fail.” Mother’s resolute Will yourself! Even in situations where we could not sit, became the root of Cheon Il Guk and three years after you sat and did hoondokhae! I vividly remember your ascension, it is bearing fruits. We will attend reading hoondok passages from volume 56 of your Mother and realize the Cheon Il Guk you yearned for Words when you were transferred from Cheongshim without fail. hospital to the hospital of the Holy Mother You are one and I am so happy to be able to attend you (성모병원). Father, at that moment, you took a deep together. breath and placed your hand on the volume of Words. Father, thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Father, I can never forget this moment. love you gave me during this life. Father! Even now, I just feel like if I turn around, you I am so happy and proud to have lived my life will smile brightly and call me, “Wonju!” attending you, Father. You were the Father who loved my voice, Father, I love you eternally.