In the end I think love trumps all other things in this life and the next

In the end I think love trumps all other things in this life and the next. My wife and I served, like many, our amazing True Parents. Through them we both discovered a God that loved us in spite of us.

We both have no regrets for giving our lives up to serve. We realize that through all the difficulties and sacrifices we grew and became quite amazing people. We have amazing children. We’ve traveled the world, we have wonderful friends and life is good.

Over the years there were so many close calls where things could have turned out worse but God stepped in and we made it through to another day.

At this time our faith has deepened and in many ways Heavenly Parents are more a part of our daily lives than ever. Our faith is not the same as it was when we joined. We aren’t the same either. It doesn’t work for us to try and act like things are the same so we don’t..

Finding how to fit into these new times has been a challenge to say the least. We love Mother and trust her completely in guiding the providence. We understand the value of all the providential activities but we just don’t feel called to be a part of them ourselves.

The realities of who we have become, what our movement has become and our growing personal relationship with God for a while created chaos. Nothing seemed to fit together anymore. This created a need for a lot of reflection and decision making as I’m not one to live a life I don’t love.

We don’t have lots of money, a big house or new cars but we have love. We love each other in a deep and profound way. Our path with True Parents has given our lives depth and meaning beyond any other. Our children, I have to hold back or I’ll write a whole book here, our children are Gods greatest gift of all. Having them in our lives is worth many years of suffering. I’m so proud of them and the lives they are building.

Our faith is stronger than ever but we find that the world we live in and even the movement we helped build is sometimes hard to understand. We are getting older and it’s sad to say but also tired.

I have been thinking a lot about what I can do and asking God what he still needs from me. Over the last year I have started to understand what He needs me to do. Love..

Love my wife and understand that God gifted me with His previous daughter to care for as He would. God gifted us with two children who we love as he loves us. God wants us to LOVE. Love each other and all things as He does.

I don’t feel called to serve with in the movements many outreach projects but I do feel called to love. That resonates with me. If I can practice loving until it becomes close to Gods love for me I think that will be the way I can support building the kingdom. It will be a good legacy and something that will move with me to the next life.

Let’s all work on becoming people that can love as our Heavenly Parents do.