4th Dream with True Mother: The Focus of the Present Era

After I came back from a meeting held in Seoul HQ in January, I wasn’t feeling well and frankly speaking, the first 2 weeks after that actually gave me a terrible health condition. I canceled some of my activities and had a hard time staying longer hours to do my lecture slides. I even didn’t join the team of volunteers for a regional English Camp in February and wasn’t able to visit the church for almost a month.

That was very unusual for me. I believed it wasn’t physical but my condition was spiritual because since December my mind was contemplating and was asking heaven of what & where should be my focus to best support the providence while I need to fulfill my individual responsibilities in a short remaining period before 2020 at the same time have to take care of my personal situations.

Korean life is very different from Philippine mission where I spent as fulltime and worked in the frontline with load of responsibilities since I joined the church. I’m just one of the home-members here but I couldn’t afford to live and spend my life in the way like other home members are doing so I always push myself to keep my promise to God that “until I die I will be working in the frontline for heaven whatever the environment I maybe in and whatever circumstances there maybe.”

I felt my ability is not being used well enough. I wasn’t satisfied with what I am doing and the result in front of me. There is actually some emptiness inside recently and longing to do the things that I believe I can but couldn’t do and considering this is Korea, my heart & my mind is looking for something to suffice and ease my disturbed conscience. These actually gave me many sleepless and restless nights and led me to reflect deeply.

During these reflection periods that on the midnight of February 23rd or maybe early dawn of February 24th Sun Jin nim and True Mother appeared in my dream in a very unusual scenario that I never imagined before.

My dream: The Focus of the Present Era

In my dream I was checking the podium on the stage (of an auditorium) in preparation for my lecture and strangely I was in formal attire wearing a fitting skirt and on heels which I didn’t usually do since I arrived here. Nobody was there except me when all of a sudden Sun Jin nim came in and told me, “Winny we need to practice these dance steps now”. She was demonstrating every move but was in a hurry as if we’re running out of time. No idea of what would going to happen next nor any program or event to have after that practice. I was clueless at all!

I tried to follow her but my skirt gave me so much limitation to move so while we were practicing I had to pull my skirt above the knee level so I could dance freely. I enjoyed following her moves but at the back of my mind I was wondering. “Why me”. At the same time I was secretly smiling seeing her cuteness while dancing. She was serious but we both enjoy each other’s move.

We spent a couple of minutes only practicing when suddenly True Mother came up on the stage and called my attention, “Winny you lead now the dancing”. I panic a bit but got surprised to see the auditorium was already jam packed of YOUNG audience (who were not there at the beginning of my dream) ready to dance with True Mother and Sun Jin nim.

I led the dancing but at the back of my mind “How come Mother knew I can dance”. Then I woke up. (dream end)

I was reflecting about that dream:

1. Why young people? For almost a decade already I ONLY worked for HanFil families and older generations of Korean society and if ever the dream was for HTM mission, I’m quite sure I would be dealing with couples and elderly not the young generation.

2. Why dancing? Korean leadership didn’t know I could dance or for sure hadn’t seen me dancing in public since arriving here. They didn’t know the other side of me except for lecturing. Of course some older Filipinos knew but young generation didn’t.

Since that morning I am puzzled of what was awaiting for me in the next days to come in order that I can fully use myself in the way True Mother wanted me to support the providence.

There are 3 Confirmations I realized from my dream:

1. NOW IS REALLY THE TIME for our YOUNG PEOPLE. Not just giving them position and responsibility directly BUT THE FOCUS AT PRESENT is on guiding, developing, educating, raising, cultivating their talents and training them to take the leadership role for the future.

We are definitely in the settlement age now in the era of Cheon IL Guk incomparable with the past providence of laying the foundation in the period of restoration. I am awed with conformity that we are really in the era of building the substantial Kingdom and preparing its future through our young generations. We need to pass the baton well!

2. True Mother is really true and correct! This dream gave me so much confidence on True Mother’s leadership that what she is doing is really what we need to do at present. She really sees the future. She is really the other half of True Parents. She is really the feminine aspect of Heavenly Parent. There is a lot of wisdom we need to inherit from her. I believe that the father can build a house but the mother can build the home….

3. DANCING! Why I was asked by Mother to lead the dancing? Who told her I dance? Actually “Dancing” was one of the things I gave up 30 years ago because it was prohibited and was categorized as secular or unholy during the time I joined the church.

BUT NOW - we can see True Mother’s vision for Shimjeong Munhwa (Culture of Heart)! We are truly living in an amazing change of time where we live in attendance to heaven through culture of arts & Heart ***

Remembering my FUNNY but TRUE Story in connection with this dream:

I joined the church at the time when many of my leisure activities were prohibited and viewed as secular and disco or party dancing was one of it. That time I was always asked by our pastor to do a 40-hour fast every time I danced in the school party as indemnity condition. I even experienced climbing up the fence of the church when I came back late midnight. And there was a time that our church neighbor called up a police thinking that I was a thief when they saw me went over the fence.

We all knew that school activities include student parties and other acquaintance programs which dancing was an avoidable thing to do especially on my part because I occupied organizational positions and my colleagues expected me to do what I usually do in such gathering. So I rather chose to indemnify my “violation” than creating a strange image in front of our friends (non-UC people) that we became “weirdo” or “aliens” after joining the Unification Movement.

Then in 1993, there was a 180 degree turn around in my situation when Omma (Dr Julia Kim – former Asia CD) decided to form a ballroom dancing team after learning that True Parents wanted to include ballroom as part of the World Culture and Sports Festival that was newly launched in August of 1992.

Omma wanted us to connect with it so she was looking for possible HQ staff to start that new activity which she believed was also good and fitted for VIP providence & PR works. After asking HQ staff to dance freely during community singings she suddenly asked me to lead and form a team. She was amused too to see me dancing beyond her expectation and I too was shocked being chosen (because of my past experiences) and there I told her my story of how I had to indemnify every time I danced, SHE LAUGHED LOUDLY because she couldn’t imagine such situation happened. “FROM NOW ON YOU ARE LIBERATED” was her immediate response while continue laughing.

Since then I got interested and focused on learning ballroom rather than disco and hip hop dances. And I always share my liberation to members by guiding them to have pure motivation in attending heaven through and while dancing. I always told them “Don’t dance for yourself or to show only your ability in dancing but do it to attend heaven and to bring joy & happiness to True Parents. The same holds true in offering a song and in lecturing” *****

I am praying that heaven can give me and bring me to a mission that I am most needed…. Not what I want but in the way heaven wants me to work for the providence. I trust heaven absolutely and I believe on “Let’s God’s Will be done. “