My Heavenly Secrets

When I started my life of faith, it was a calling from Heaven that I felt there was a strong force that pushed me to this destiny. It was really strong that despite the fact that religious life was completely opposite to my then personality and lifestyle, I couldn’t resist it. It was blind obedience that I followed this path and just allowed God to lead me to my God-prepared destiny. I think this is what faith really means.

Looking at the disciples of Jesus and the saints and sages of history, I knew for sure that to take this course will eventually lead me to suffering, because following the path of faith requires a lot of pains, sacrifices, self-denial and self-discipline. That is why when I absolutely decided to go this road, I prepared my heart and mind and surrendered myself to God and His Heavenly Will by saying:

“Winny you’re not existing anymore. You’re just a property owned by God and have to do what the owner’s will is.”

This attitude made me survive and keep this path for 26 years and I realized that the more I unite with the Will of God to a designed destiny for me, the more I could see brightly the blessings from Heaven.

However, true to my confession, within the period of taking up the course of faith, there are times that human fallen natures and life’s realities pushed us to hit our own boundaries, patience, and enthusiasm to continue. I realized that the more I tried to deviate from it, the more I had experienced suffering life and difficulties.

Comparing the pains and suffering we could experience between following the path of faith and the life with total individual freedom, I could say that I experienced more loneliness and emptiness in my heart when I was outside the realm of God’s calling.

Therefore, I tried to abandon the idea of self and tried to live according to the desire of Heaven. I kept within me the following ideas and I always used them in my lectures to remind me of the course of My Life of Faith.

I call them MY HEAVENLY SECRETS: (I will share some of them here.)

1. Selfless Attitude (this is TF’s motto in life)

I should not expect to be understood rather I should respect and humble

I should not expect to be served rather I should serve and care

I should not expect to be loved rather I should love and love more

2. My 3 Prohibited Cs in Life

I should not compare

I should not complain

I should not criticize

3. True Humility : It is easy to humble to people who are more capable and older/elder than us but for me true humility is when we can humble ourselves to people younger, less capable and those who (and even once) are our subordinates as well as our children.

4. True Love is an Action Word (TF’s definition of TL)

*Give and forget what you have given

*Forgive and forget even the pains and leave no scars

*Invest and forget what you have invested

*Sacrifice and forget and continue to live for others’ sake

True Love is painful because you have to invest yourself 100%, give yourself 100% and forget yourself 100% by going beyond life and death. On the contrary, false love is when you expect something in return and putting yourself as the first priority.

5. I should become a person whom God and Others can say “I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU”

6. Blessing is not what i want but what i need in order to reach perfection. Our ultimate GOAL is perfection and ultimate DESTINY is Kingdom of Heaven. Blessing is God’s gift to us and making it successful is our gift to God. It is INHERITANCE of heavenly LOVE-LIFE-LINEAGE.

7. I should become a person with

~HANDS to help and work

~EARS to listen

~HEARTS to guide and care

~EYES to appreciate the beauty and goodness of others

~MOUTH to speak only heavenly words

8. Leadership is Parenthood – if we lead we must have parental heart, public mind, selfless attitude, undying commitment and strong will to save our children. This is a parent! We must have utmost sincere love for God, absolute faith to TPs, deep commitment to fulfill God’s will and strong desire to build the Kingdom of God on earth and in heaven.

9. Witnessing is my life! Without it i cant live!

It is life giving, soul searching that needs to exert my love-sweat-tears-prayers and willingness to die for the salvation of others.

10. Substantial results are the manifestation of our internal situations.

11. Foundation to receive the Messiah

It requires Purity (FF) and HUMILITY (FS). It is a life with absolute faith- love-submission to God and to TPs (this is life of attendance) as FF. It needs harmony and unity among ourselves (victory in all sorts of relationships) as FS.

12. 4 important Fs in my life

Faith to God – Filial Piety towards TPs – Fidelity to spouse – Family commitment

13. the Sinful I’s

~ inferiority as opposed to 1st blessing

~ infidelity & incest as opposed to 2nd blessing

~ irresponsible attitude as opposed to 3rd blessing

14. Be contented with what you receive but never be contented with what you have accomplished.

Always be grateful with what you have and offer to heaven what you have fulfilled.

15. my spirit self needs: HDH is food for my spirit self. Prayer is air for my spirit self. Witnessing is water for my spirit self. Tithing is blood of my spirit self.

16. Committing to live a Public life is similar to a plane that starting to take of, once it did… it would not stop unless it reached its destination place. A plane that doesnt reach its destination could either mean 2 things: it has encountered problem and lose its flight or it crashed.

These heavenly secrets helped me focused my spiritual life to the direction of Heavenly calling and it became my guiding principle to overcome all obstacles along the way.