Do we recognize our Heavenly Father’s loving guidance? Part 4

In this and the following instalments I would like to have a closer look at what kinds of comments were offered in response to the decisive theme “Unite and restore the lost heart of brothers and sisters” In the iUnificationist Meeting House.

The first comment was sent on March 3, 2011. One sister who is very active on iUnificationist wrote: “Very interesting blog in deed, with many good points, thank you !! However I think Klaus if you would start to share your personal testimonies it will probably encourage others much more, to do like wise. As you said: ‘Please let others know what is going on inside of yourselves by opening your hearts so that you may share with others freely.’ * AJU *

I had offered this reflection for the sake of encouraging more communication and sharing among us as brothers and sisters. To ask that I start to offer my personal testimonies is not fitting in this situation because I have already published more than 5000 pages of “A testimony to a life dedicated to unite God’s children” – the subtitle of the book Sunshine in the Heart.

The second person to respond wrote: “Thanks, Nikolaus, I like your message and the way you express yourself. You are very straight. Most of all I liked those words, but could not understand fully what you mean by them ‘If you can not inherit the Heart of God and True Parents, you will be like Ham. When you see a problem or encounter a difficultly, you must take that as a sign of hope that victory is coming your way. It is an indication that you are heading towards true restoration, recreation and resurrection.’ Can you please explain more?”

I answered: “Dear [name of this sister], I think that Heung Jin Nim wanted to emphasize that we should not make the same mistake as Ham who distrusted his father but show deep faith in our True Parents. Even when they are doing things that may not be easily understood we should take this as a positive challenge. And if we are truly victorious in overcoming the difficulty we may be facing we will definitely experience a certain inner resurrection or new aspects of recreation in our hearts.”

Gratitude was expressed upon receiving my explanation: “True, that is what i needed to hear! Thank you very much.”

The third person to comment was a representative of the black race: “Thank you for sharing J brother Nikolaus

The type of heart relationship that we cultivate on this earth, will be recorded as video of our lifetime memory, and only this we can take to spirit world with us. And expressing our heart with love as brothers and sisters through the internet in our present is like passing across many borders of spiritual world to and fro in communication freely. WOW! This is great! AJU!!!“

In this way the vertical aspect of our horizontal sharing was emphasized and the eternal nature of our relationships which we are supposed to build during our lifetime on this earth. This note is also an encouragement to be serious about the way we relate to one another.

A hopeful spirit was expressed in response to this message: “Brother [name]! Thank you for your beautiful spirit and heart!! I am always inspired by you and your wonderful comments! This way we will become one family very soooooooon :) Aju!“

On March 6, 2011 one person asked: “You are writing so much, do you have time to practice it?” I gave a short answer to this question: “Dear [name of this brother], Yes, I have time to practice what I am writing as I am investing most of my waking hours to take care of brothers and sisters in the best way that I can…”

Three days later another person asked: “Could you, Niklaus, share your factual practices and experiences in applying Father’s words, and how it helps your tribe’s member and home town’s people to desire turn again to God and True Parents ?” with an additional question: “Niklaus, could you share how you do practice what you write?” To which I answered: “Dear [name of this sister], You ask me how I practice what I write about in my tribe and hometown. Now I would like you to understand that I am not free to invest there in the way I would like to because of my responsibility as representative of all Cain and Abel national messiahs.

In order to fulfil this role I am challenged to support fellow national messiahs around the world and accordingly I have worked in many countries during the past decade since such a task was entrusted to me at the 40 day workshop for all Adam, Eve, Cain and Abel national messiahs in June 2000.

Because the unity among all national messiahs and between Blessed families and the ones who were entrusted with the mission of national messiahship are so centrally important, I have been going to different countries and have invested directly for this purpose (for example last November/December in France) besides reaching out to our members via the internet.

If you read through the 5000 pages of the e-book Sunshine in the Heart you will find a lot of concrete content of what I have done for the sake of supporting our church in various countries especially during the past 7 years since our Heavenly Father has shown me that I should concentrate on supporting our own members rather than witnessing to outside people.”

At this point on March 9, 2011 there was the exchange between one person and me about questions but as this sister deleted her messages afterwards they are no longer on the website and I cannot quote them.

Then in the early hours of March 10, 2011 the attack by one sister began, with one message after another being sent, referring to me as a liar again and again without offering any concrete evidence, just accusations from this person’s point of view and her understanding…

I have no desire to quote these false accusations so as not to multiply lies but will include some excerpts in order to comment on them or to clarify facts like referring to me in the following terms that I am: “… truly a real AA, having two tongues, speaking good things but behind having other intentions, you are truly a danger Mr. Beutl and if you continue to challenge our faith, then I will confront you!”

Yes, it is true, I am challenging brothers and sisters, but for what purpose? To reflect more seriously about their behaviour, for the sake of a deepening of our faith as members of our True Parents’ extended family. What are the other intentions that I have? They are assumed, suspected because one cannot trust the sincerity of the other person…

After some posts with accusations by this sister one person who commented before positively wrote: “Dear brothers and sisters. I don’t know anything about anybody here. And I pray that if there was told any truth about somebody’s mistakes or sins, that person would repent and come back to God.

And we need to repent on all wrong things that we’ve done ever before in our lives and change it forever…That what I also experience in my own life of faith. All of us commit lots of sins in our everyday lives. But God loves us and all the time gives us new chance with His great love…

Also myself I never care about any position or title. It’s not the way…Even if we are given any title, we shouldn’t talk about it with others, having them to respect us because of that. We need to embody those words that we share with others and be always humble in our hearts…”

This is certainly the bottom line: To manifest in our deeds what we are talking about. Hyung Jin Nim deplored repeatedly the widespread hypocrisy in our church, and it is definitely high time that we take his concern to heart and make sure that our life has nothing to do with hypocrisy, an attitude that so easily creeps into the hearts of believers.

The person who spread lies about me is a leading member of our church in her country, dedicated to do God’s Will, so she knows what the right attitude would be and expressed it in her comments: “So even how much we say beautiful and wonderful things by words but we don´t cleanse ourselves, deny ourselves, take the spotlight off from ourselves and give back to God and our True Parents then we are blocking God to work with us, we tend to be a threat to God and TP´s providence because we tend to analyze the providence based on what we think or like…”

True Father said that those leaders who after listening to his sermon meet to discuss his instructions – from their own points of view, compromising them – are Satan. Father spoke in such terms because it is indeed a serious problem to judge the Word of God from one’s own standpoint, according to one’s individual understanding and concepts.

This sister continued: “Our True Parents have guided us to check ourselves always and this is what Hyung Jin Nim is always guiding us, that we are sinners, that we accept that we are sinners. If only Adam and Eve had accepted that they sinned and not blamed anybody that they sinned then they could have returned to God´s bosom and sin couldn´t have multiplied.”

With these words a core issue is addressed, which our international president emphasizes a lot recently – that we confess that we are sinners. Of course the point is not just to say it with words but to realize deep in our hearts in which kind of way I am allowing evil forces to work in my life, in my surroundings, etc.

I am speaking about what is not right in our own ranks for the sake of evil to be unveiled and to be kicked out thoroughly – from the bottom of our hearts. Because there are too many members who are not yet fully ready to go through such a course I have met with so much opposition by leaders and members of our church, while on the other hand there are those who know the value of my investment for them.

For example one brother, who is taking care of young people in our church in his native country, wrote one week ago: “Dear Nikolaus, I am so sorry for you being banned from iUnificationist… You are great for not accepting the role of scapegoat but standing behind what you know is right. I don´t know how I would have made it through the last couple of years without your example. Thank you Nikolaus and God bless, …”

Isn’t it our task to help each other substantially even beyond external distances? I did not meet this brother for three years and still I could be a concrete support in his life. May we all invest wholeheartedly into being a channel of God’s loving Heart for one another.